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Hope..

It’s been a long time since my last post. I am writing right now to be an inspiration.

I believe that every morning I wake up God is telling me that there is still hope. Every answered simple prayers everyday like pag walang sakay yung jeep, I would pray “Lord bless this jeepney, the driver, and the kundoktor”. Then that moment bigla na lang kami mapupuno. Every answered prayer everyday I know that Jesus is telling me “Mylene I am here. I am working. I am not done with you, with your family. Hindi ko kayo nakakalimutan”.

Kaya kayo diyan na nakakaramdam ng sakit, ng bigat, na parang wala ng bukas wag kayong mawalan ng pag-asa. Iiyak lang natin. Hinga ng malalim at magpasalamat sa panibagong bukas. Laging kumapit sa pangako ng Diyos at magtiwala na siya pa din ang my control sa lahat. Na whatever problems do we have, He can turn it into a blessings.Just wait and be surprised. God is working on us.

Kaya Nanay at Tatay, wag kayong susuko. Alam kong mabigat na, alam kong gustong gusto niyo ng magpahinga kapit lang. Hindi tayo nakakalimutan ni Hesus. Bawat taong tumutulong saten iyan ay blessing niya.

God is telling us, “You have been doing your own way. Try may way”. Amen!

“Oh, I must find rest in God only, because my hope comes from Him! Only God is my rock and my salvation -my stronghold- I will not be shaken” – Psalm 62:5-6

Pabilin

Today is June 13, 2022, 6:51 PM. I heard Moira’s song “Pabilin”.

Yakapin mo siyang mahigpit sa bawat sandali Na parang yon na ang huli Sabihin ang nadarama na mahal mo rin siya Huwag nang hintaying mawala Lagi mo siyang pakinggan at lagi mong kakantahan Sanay gawin ang lahat ng di ko nagawa

And that was my plan, yakapin ng mahigpit pag-uwi. But that feeling has changed. Sumama ang loob ko because yung mga bagay na dapat dating sabay naming ginagawa ngayon ako na lang mag-isa. Like grocery, he asked me na mag grocery kasama na lang ung helper. Maybe I’m just tired of this feeling, na laging ako. Lagi siyang busy with friends and we are not his priority.

I know that my happiness should not depend on him. I should be happy on my own. Nakakalungkot lang na ung nararamdaman mo na gusto mo siyang makasama is not the same sa kaniya.

I know na dapat sabihin ko yung nararamdaman ko, pero alam mo yung feeling na hindi naman siya nakikinig? Na parang wala lang sa kaniya kung makasama ka niya o hindi.

Usually, I give advise but today is my down day. I just wanna cry out loud. To all the ladies who felt the same today, hugs! All our feeling are valid. IIyak natin to. Bukas magiging okay din ang lahat. Lalo nating mahalin ang ating mga sarili para sa mga mahal natin sa buhay. Laban lang! 😀 God bless!

Realization to a better relationships

When my husband came back from one week out of town trip, I noticed that he was not in a good mood, maybe because he was so tired due to his super busy schedule. Since I missed him so much, I had my expectations. Then I realized, that his short temper attitude did not change, I just learned to manage it in a way that I know that I should not react immediately to his short temper and always remind myself that tough love is stil love.

Relationship becomes better not because your partner have changed the way you want him to be but you have changed on how to react to his attitudes and his flaws. Remember to love his imperfections and always look on the intentions