Pabilin

Today is June 13, 2022, 6:51 PM. I heard Moira’s song “Pabilin”.

Yakapin mo siyang mahigpit sa bawat sandali Na parang yon na ang huli Sabihin ang nadarama na mahal mo rin siya Huwag nang hintaying mawala Lagi mo siyang pakinggan at lagi mong kakantahan Sanay gawin ang lahat ng di ko nagawa

And that was my plan, yakapin ng mahigpit pag-uwi. But that feeling has changed. Sumama ang loob ko because yung mga bagay na dapat dating sabay naming ginagawa ngayon ako na lang mag-isa. Like grocery, he asked me na mag grocery kasama na lang ung helper. Maybe I’m just tired of this feeling, na laging ako. Lagi siyang busy with friends and we are not his priority.

I know that my happiness should not depend on him. I should be happy on my own. Nakakalungkot lang na ung nararamdaman mo na gusto mo siyang makasama is not the same sa kaniya.

I know na dapat sabihin ko yung nararamdaman ko, pero alam mo yung feeling na hindi naman siya nakikinig? Na parang wala lang sa kaniya kung makasama ka niya o hindi.

Usually, I give advise but today is my down day. I just wanna cry out loud. To all the ladies who felt the same today, hugs! All our feeling are valid. IIyak natin to. Bukas magiging okay din ang lahat. Lalo nating mahalin ang ating mga sarili para sa mga mahal natin sa buhay. Laban lang! 😀 God bless!

Realization to a better relationships

When my husband came back from one week out of town trip, I noticed that he was not in a good mood, maybe because he was so tired due to his super busy schedule. Since I missed him so much, I had my expectations. Then I realized, that his short temper attitude did not change, I just learned to manage it in a way that I know that I should not react immediately to his short temper and always remind myself that tough love is stil love.

Relationship becomes better not because your partner have changed the way you want him to be but you have changed on how to react to his attitudes and his flaws. Remember to love his imperfections and always look on the intentions